My name is Erica. I have been at Mary’s Song for 3 months and honestly I stand amazed at what the Lord has done. For so many years I found my security in men, titles, and materialistic things. I would try to overachieve to gain acceptance or try to people please to avoid rejection. I walked on eggshells or worked myself nearly to death all to no avail. I always ended up back at square one: feeling unloved, unaccepted, and underappreciated. I was always fixing myself up and fishing for complements. I could never be thin enough, my hair color was never the “right” color, and my collection of makeup was endless.
I’ve wasted so much time trying to be accepted by the world that I totally lost sight of who I really am. I was having a full-blown identity crisis! I’ve learned that something like this is deep rooted in rejection. Each day here at Mary’s Song, we quote scriptures aloud at least three times a day declaring who we are in Christ. At first I was uneasy and skeptical about saying aloud who the Bible says I am. I thought it was silly and I felt uncomfortable because I didn’t truly believe those things were true about me. However, the more I did it and continue to do it, the more I am starting to believe it.
Those things are becoming real to me, and the closer I get to Jesus, the more He is revealing to me how valuable I am to Him. I have found so much peace and rest in knowing that I don’t have to look a certain way or act a certain way to be accepted by Him. No more trying to fit in or be over the top. I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am His workmanship, I am victorious, and I am more than a conqueror. I am all these things because I am with Him now and the world no longer dictates who I am. What takes the win of it all is not just who I am, but whose I am. I am a daughter of the one true King!